if you dont wake up ill have to stop kissing you...

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 04:02:59 GMT

I DONT WRESTLE I BEAT BITCHES UP!

p.s.- i wanna go to goldens but everyones being a faggot.

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 03:45:29 GMT

fuck all yall hatas blowdick.

your susspended for hitting a teacher. HAHA

GET FUCKED <3XO.

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 01:52:56 GMT

POT IS GOOD!!!

DONT HATE NIGGAHS. ♥

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 00:47:17 GMT

ok so theres a girl who if she dont stop running her mouth...is gonna get her teeth kicked in.

idiot.

Sat, 06 Nov 2004 18:41:22 GMT

so yeah i got FUCKEDD up last night, and i cut my hair. ALOT. and it looks nice but i kind of regret it. lets hear it for being a drunken asshole...wooooooo GET FUCKED <3xo.

will you marry me. pshhhh.

you dont know how this feels

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 20:41:58 GMT

To Whom it may concern ::you know who you are::,
i realized we sit here and point fingers and blame eachother for what we ourselfs couldnt avoid but all i did was love you im sorry im a terrible person and im sorry i couldnt fix it and im sorry i said that but i cant sit here and apologise for everything i did wrong or id waste my life away because i fuck up alot but like a fine wine we get older with time but this is all useless because youve moved on to bigger and better things ::biger and better girls:: but thats ok ill sit here and sulk a bit and then ill get over it things really must happen for a reason this one is still unknown but i know it must be a good one i dunno but i do know im just simply rambling on and all i can say is im sorry or i love you but honesty thats how it is and im sorry if that upsets you but its the truth and no longer can i hide the truth from you i love you from the second i seen you on the osb site and even tho i was a little girl and didnt know you and you could have been a 56 year old petafile i loved you and i still love you and always fucking will dispite weather you want to love me back the love will always fucking reamain here and can never ever be demolished im gonna stop before i get to the point of histerics. </3>

new stuff.

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 16:08:05 GMT

BWA AINT NOTHING TO FUCK WITH.NIGGAH

me and najia
im the fucking queen.

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 15:58:56 GMT

Have you ever cried because you were confused? i hate this feeling. i could throw up. is it worth it?

+SHE LOVES HIM
-SHE LOVES HIM
+SHE LOVES HIM
-SHE LOVES HIM
= HE MAKES ME WANT TO HURT MY SELF.

.All i know is that i dont know.

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 15:54:34 GMT

I dont know what i really feel anymore...i tell myself im done getting hurt but i REALLY want this...well him. i dont know waht to say. dfgdfdfdfsdfdkajfksd. I just wish things were more clear.

GET FUCKED <3xo.

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 14:36:52 GMT

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GET FUCKED YOU FAGGOTS <3.

eat my shit.

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 13:57:25 GMT

everyone fucking blew me off so i fliped out and went to the party by myself but it was all gravy being i knew everyone there...so yeah the party was off the hook then it started to die so we went to a new one at kaytlins house and that was sick i got pretty drunk and then smoke 2 joints and watched my cousin battle some kids hes so a good rapper. and i had to pee so we went inside and i went to pee and some kevin kid was in there like throwing up and bleeding he like fell and cut his head open and then britney came in (the bath room was weird there was two doors to the same bathroom it was so weird and i was tooooo drunk hah) to save him and i was like guys i have to pee and they just said to pee they were too busy and they werent watching so i peed with 25i3489768934 kids in the bathroom with me no i lied there was 2 kids and i couldnt pee i was too scared being there were kids in there. so i left and me and amanda went in and peed together. and kristy and louie looked like they were together again but kristy assured me they werent but whateva. i was just drunk and high and it was an overall good time dispite everyone that dicked me over. i think im gonna throw a hugh kegger once it starts getting warm again.i dunno.

GET FUCKED <3XO.

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 17:23:34 GMT

-i hate my school and i hate when they have these lame ass peprallys.

+but i love the fucking pawtys that come along with them.

GETTING KRUNK.

GET FUCKED <3XO.

G'S UP HOES DOWN..IF THAT BITCH CANT SWIM SHES BOUND TO DROWN

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 14:50:26 GMT

so yeah the other day was my sister jennys (who passed away as a baby from crib death) birthday and my mom was all sad and depressed and it made me feel bad (even tho i never met my sister jenny (it was before i was born)) and scared of having a child and having it die. i really dont want kids but i bet ill have em im just so scared.NEXT... amanda might be moving back to bayshore and its breaking my heart i love her sooo much shes my best friend i would take a bullet for that girl. mine and her relationship means the world to me you cant even understand the love i have for her. so she might come live with me indeed its gonna be hard at times but well live through it.NEXT...i really hate men. i want my stuff back and if i dont get it relativly soon someones gonna get spit on.. and as for the SLUT ill fucking make her bite the curb i will honestly break her jaw i dont give a fuck about goin to jail or getting sent away shes fucking with the wrongggg person.i think im this pissed off because im not high right now i could smoke a fat blunt right about now... OMFG a coconut phillie....CREAM. ( you prolly didnt get that oh well your a faggot) yeah so i realized people who work at hot toppic are faggots with 12 year old gfs. hahahahaha.i didnt go to school yesterday and i missed my PSATS but i dont even know what they are and im really thinking about dropping out...whats the point in working my ass off and then finding out i cant make it into FIT if i dont make it ill kill myself...FIT has been my dream since i could dress myself and ive fucked up in the past but honeslty ill do anything to get in ANYTHING. i cant wait for this weekend tho im partyin all weekend with sunday as a hangover day...its gonna be ill. i dunno what else to say im just confused latly. i guess in my pea brain i thawt for a millasecond that maybe he thawt something too. oh well shit happens for a reason ill get over it. im just lonley so it sucks.

NOT IN THE RIGHT ORDER......

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 14:52:14 GMT

+ Morrissey rocke it...HARD!
- my legs hurt from running all over the city.
- i didnt see jer this weekend.
+ i hung out with steFINE. hehe.
+ see amanda and aff.
- boys are douche bags.
- i didnt get a morrissey shirt.
- he didnt finish the last song. :(
+ I GOT TO SEE MIKE! <33333333.
+ i smoke too much weed. wait no i dont thats impossible.
+ hase is AMAZINGLY DELIOUS.
- im thinking about droping out again. ITS LOOKING LIKE A GOOD IDEA, BUT SO IS F.I.T
- something just does'nt feel right.i almost feel empty.
- im so confused with life and where things are going.
i guess im done. GET FUCKED<3xo.

hmmmm...where to start

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 15:03:34 GMT

me and james are no longer together, but we didnt see enuf of eachother so its kinda good we broke up it was too hard to carry on a relationship with someone you never got to see... and they only called you when they felt like it i dunno im just sick of peoples bullshit id rather be alone and miserable than be miserable and with someone and have to put up with their bullshit too. And ive come to realize I FUCKING LOVE AMANDA. shes honestly the most important person in my life you fuck with her aside from her wooping your ass im gonna fucking pour a gallon of bleach down your throat that is my girl for life yah herd niggahs <333 ive been at her house almost EVERY MOTHA FUCKIN DAY i just love chillin with her and aff and stephon is maddd chill hes so funny too. i dunno im just trying to keep myself busy and im doin a really good job and im doing better because of it. i dunno i really think i wanna start riding bmx but honestly thats alot of work and a shit load of energy that i dont have. i really hate school and i wanna drop out...that was random but im sitting in computer application and im bored they make us do the dumbest shit like make charts...look at this bullshit

Island Area (km2) Tallest Peak Peak Height (m)
Hawaii 6,501 Mauna Kea 4,139
Maui 1,174 Haleakala 3,007
Oahu 979 Kaala 1,208
Kauai 890 Kawaikini 1,573
Molokai 420 Kamakou 1,491
Lanai 225 Lanaihale 1,011
Niihau 118 Paniau 384
Kahoolawe 72 Lua Makika 443

like who gives a fuck about this but its counting as a math credit and thats good because i have NO math credits hahahahaha...im STILL in math a how sad...whatever tho yeah im bored and im done typeing so lata.

GET FUCKED <3XO.

Fri, 17 Sep 2004 17:13:14 GMT

i cant wait for halloween its gonna be the best im goin to a BME pawty in nyc and then chilling in the city and i bet all you faggots are like goin trick or treating hahaha losers. and me and amandas costumes are gonna be so kick ass and were gonna get into so many fights over it i cant wait hahahahhah alll i gots to say is FUCK YAH SCENE YOU PUSSY BITCH ASS FAGGOTS. honestly thats why i dont go to shows anymore its all about being scene so many sluts go to make an appearance and then like leave to get drunk because there worthless cunts but hey its there life... yeah i dunno what to write about.

go drink some bleach you faggg.
GET FUCKED <3XO.

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 06:31:25 GMT

i realized i love james soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much its like amazing like i honestly think this is ment to be.And i love amanda shes my bestest friend eva and we had 2 sleep ovas with like no bouges and verry little weed and we forgot to get our 40's...oh well yeah im gonna be seeing her lots and lots since she moved...but yeah i love my baby so much. i now know what happiness is<3

::WARNING:: this entry is me rambling on feeling sorry for myself

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 04:58:19 GMT

wow so yeah everyone tends to lie these days...and i have noone. i dont even think there are such things as best friends or if there is there called lying ass back stabbing sluts... but whatever i just hate everyone i guess. me and james are finaly dating and i couldnt be more happy about that but tonight he was talking about gettin a gun and some things were said and i got upset and did my whole emotional thing...and then i got into a confilct with the cunt at the same time and i put an awaymessage up "im so done with you" and he figured it was about him and then fliped and said not to talk to him and put an away up and it then i told him what happend with the cunt and i dont really think he belived me. and then we kinda faught for like 10 mins and nothing was resolved he said things that made me feel really bad and i didnt know what to do i was scared because i love him and i dont want anything to happen to him hes my world and the only person who hasnt dicked me over yet...im just so fucking nuts right now. and i feel like complete and total shit right now...i did somthing i shouldnt have and now bad habbits are back but hopfully not for good... i dunno but these sleeping pills are starting to kick in (god bless trazadome)...so GET FUCKED <3XO.

come on just say it you need me like a bad habbit

OMGZ

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 02:44:37 GMT

ASHLEE SIMPSON IS PLAYING AT THE ROOSEVELT FEILD MALL ALL DAY FRIDAY AND I HAVEEEE TO GO <3

when you went away you said that youd be...

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 02:25:09 GMT

ok so nothing much has been goin on...jer asked me to go to warped tour with him and i got the money and all that jazz and yeah shits been really boring...school sucks im failing math..go figure. um yeah ive been really tired and running on empty i go to bed at like 3 and wake up at like 6 and im never really sleeping its unfair....ok wanna hear a song story...my brother use to date a prostitute this was in the days of him shooting up and smoking crack well yeah and she was like a crack whore shed go suck dick and fuck for money or drugs and well she use to break into the house from the basment and whould steal shit from us and my mom didnt want her in the house and we got like new locks and shit well...she had no place to go to the bathroom since she lived in the basment so shed shit and piss in like buckets and then keep them out side and well since my brothers been avicted noone wanted to really clean that but he came over to visit today and hes still clean :) and well yeah my mom made him go clean up and he jumped the buckets of shit and i was sleeping in my room with my fan on so the stench of shit and piss got sucked into my room and i woke up and puked all over it was so discusting...so i slept on the couch to excape the smell...and i fell asleep and my mom kept waking me up for fucking phone calls i was so mad i threw something at her it was funny. but yeah i dont feel good and im talking to john about goin to kings park tomorrow it looks fun but kinda scary...ill prolly die but yeah i gotta go wrap my neice and nefews birthday gifts so GET FUCKED <3

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 01:33:49 GMT

the village sucks dont go see it! and yeah i missed jers pawty and i didnt see him today either...maybe tomorrow

Which Family Guy character are you?

THE LASTEST RUMOR!

Sun, 01 Aug 2004 07:43:25 GMT

hahahahahahha this one is amazing....i evadently ate out some kids asshole...well if anyone herd that comeout of kyle murrys mouth dont belive it its a fucking lie because sorry but i dont eat asshole...nor do i let people eat my asshole so keep on dreaming but you wanna belive it i dont care its sad people have nothing better to do than talk about me its kinda cute i like it<3

hellfest,nyc

Sun, 01 Aug 2004 05:12:24 GMT

hmm i got my monroe then went to daves and went to bed and then me and kris and dave went to the store and then had bagels and waited for his car to be ready and it was at like 3 hahah but yeah hellfest was amazing we missed the first day because of traffic in nyc and we had some kids from boston stay in our room, and i seen mike <3 and it was fun and BAD LUCK 13 OWNS ALL!!!!!!!! um yeah kris's gf is a cutie and hotel pawtys are amazing and yeah....and since hellfest nothing has really gone on... but yesterday i went to NYC to see kezia and go shopping i took the train out and met up with scott and kris and then we took the subway to the park and we met up with kezia and went in virgin for like an hour and then walked around went to look at plugs and we they got food and we walked around and went in search and destroy and we were gonna go to mars 2112 but didnt we played in kmart and walked around and i got starbucks 2 TIMES hahaha and we went to mc donalds and got french fries cause everyone either vegan or vegitarian...yah and i was gonna buy this NOTORIOUS BIG book but i didnt and i wish i did and then i took a train home and didnt get home till like 4 am and my mom was really mad but she was more worried but atleast i came home... but yeah i love the city i wanna move out there i think i might <3xo.

im dying...

Wed, 21 Jul 2004 01:32:41 GMT

hmm...i wasnt in summer school today because i got no sleep due to the fact i couldnt breath...ive been having problems with my lungs and heart making it hard to breath and ofcorse my mom dont care so i called my dad and asked him to take me and they said my breathing was so faint they couldnt hear it with the styhiscope and they had to take x-rays and i have extreem broncitis thats about to form into phnomonia and during anytime i feel a tad bit worse im to call 911 and get rushed to the ER...they gave me all this medication i cant smoke and i cant be around second hand smoke :( and i still cant really breath i feel like im dying...but im goin to get my monroe this thursday my sister is taking me then friday is hellfest...and DAVE is god and super cool hes better than you :P hehe um yeah i think im done talking before i pass out...GET FUCKED<3XO.

Mon, 19 Jul 2004 01:17:13 GMT

hmmm....today i WAS homeless i no longer am i knew shed feel bad...but i think im gonna get a job soon so i can move...and does anyone want tickets to hellfest bc now my ride dont know if were goin bc 9 kids cant fit in one car we need a van and we might rent...so if anyone wants to buy em let me know or if you want to let me come with you ill give you some money i aint cheep <3.

GET FUCKED<3XO.

i love jamesssss<3x259873958239679846 and miss him lots and lots